September 25, 2011

Time Makes a Difference

I am doing better.
There are some changes that have really helped, but there is still a lot of work to do. Reading therapy related books and blogs only at work has really helped. I've discovered some great fiction and have done some fun things lately. I will occasionally check my work email, but try to avoid it at all cost. There's little I can't handle later.
I am still feeling somewhat lost in all of this. Why I have chosen to come to this place is a mystery, but I'm discovering more and more of how to get out of it. I've always wanted to know the why and still seek it, but what the hell. Doesn't it get to some point where you say fuck it?
It's interesting about some of the realizations that have come up for me that may be helpful in the future. My desire to write. My uncomfortableness around men. My laziness. My desire for freedom and escape. The one place I want to live in the future. My food issues. So much.
I still look over to that other chair while I am working and see myself way too much. While this isn't always a bad thing, it's hurting me right now. On the other side of the coin, it's also what makes me a good therapist.
Ok, enough stream of consciousness writing for now. It's interesting as I write this and think about wanting to write. It's always been somewhat of a struggle translating what is going on in my head to paper or keyboard. I wonder what THAT means... ;)
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6 comments:

ASMITA said...

yr.....very true....<3 <3...

DMM said...

I've felt that same struggle to express, thank you for your bravery in sharing!

Zoe said...

i was looking for samples of journalling for the social work practicum I'm starting on and found your blog. i write mine in the old-fashioned binders but want to make them look more 'professional' in my practicum folder.

Time does make a difference. When I leveraged on the 'New Year New . . . '. in my journals, i tracked myself and found that until i allow a part of me to 'die' and be 'buried', then i am able to open myself up to new ideas, and the latent optimism i had been hiding away for so long.

for this new year, i wish you have a great time re-discovering and cherishing yourself . . . unearthed from all the BSW MSW RSW and overtly other-centered sessions . . .

therapydoc said...

I WISH you'd keep blogging! I'm linking over anyway, if I didn't already, love the title.

murat tetik said...

take a easy :)
http://tattyshot.blogspot.com/

Burned Out Social Worker said...

Love the title of your blog. Hope you didn't burn out. Don't be like me!

http://socialworkburnout.blogspot.com

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