Off the Beaten Path

In this small journey, I've found that I have been able to get off the usual path, but have also discovered that my first resort is past paths that I've taken previously. I've been trying to learn more about myself as a personal individual, rather than as my "want to heal myself healer" and have found myself at past interests and points in time that I'm not even sure I want to be.

For example, after I have up the psychology blogs and books, I went back to reading authors that I'd read before and playing games I had before. Went right back to that as a replacement. That seems good, but isn't it just a well worn path I'm falling back into? If that was nourishing for me before, would I not have stuck with it? What am I getting from it? So many questions, but what good do the answers do me?

I'm wavering now between thoughts of going with the process, or realizing that the process is just another groove that's trying to trap me. And of course, I'm also stuck in my over-thinking pattern. And here I am, off to work in a few short hours. Sigh...