May 3, 2009
I'm notoriously horrible at making decisions. Be it from simply what to watch on television, to where to go for dinner, to when and where I want to go in life, decisions are always difficult for me.
This past week, I've had to make a pretty big decision concerning my MSW program. As part of the program, we have a practicum that spans over half a year at the same place. My past practicums have been hit and miss, so I really wanted to make sure I did the right thing here.
So last week rolled around and this is when my telephone interviews for the sites happened. The first interview went well, and I was really liking the placement opportunity. It looked like it would be fast paced, I could have a certain amount of autonomy and there were definitely diverse learning opportunities. However, the interview was very matter of fact and I really couldn't get that good a feel about who my supervisor was, as a person or as a supervisor.
The second interview also went well. I connected with the supervisor, got a real feel for the placement and again, liked what I heard. This placement wouldn't be as fast paced, and the diversity of the population served wouldn't be as broad, but I would have some amazing learning opportunities, and the supervision was probably going to be better.
Coming out of the interviews, it was really a toss-up. I, as always, had a difficult time deciding. I did the pros and cons list, I hemmed and hawed, I figuratively flipped some coins. The first practicum was what I came out of my last practicum wanting. The second practicum had better supervision and good learning opportunities. What I think it came down to was the supervision and pushing myself to stretch out of my comfort zone. I chose the second practicum in a city counseling agency. In this practicum I will be observed, videotaped and recorded. From this, I will get feedback and critique, things that I desperately need.
I'm pretty comfortable with my decision and am looking forward to the opportunity.
Now if only I could decide where to eat this evening...